The First Step to Conversion

templations / that he would gladly do penance / but finds no true sorrow (over his committed sins) in himself / and yet feels a hunger for sorrow (just as the poor imprisoned soul continually gasps / fears itself / and must acknowledge itself guilty for the sins before the judgment of God) he cannot make it better / nor can he do anything better / than that he gathers his senses and mind / with the whole intellect together / and makes for himself at that very hour and moment (in the first contemplation (as soon as he feels in himself the desire for repentance)) a powerful resolution / that he will at that same hour and minute immediately walk in repentance / and away from the path of the godless: also not to value all the power and honor of the world: and to leave everything (whatever it might be) / and consider it as nothing / for the sake of true repentance: and set for himself such a firm and severe mind / that he never wishes to turn back from it / even if he were to be a mockery or fool to the whole world (in it): and that he desires with his mind