The First Step to Conversion

in which You accepted me as a child and heir of eternal life) and [I] have introduced my desire into the vanity of this world, and defiled my soul therewith, and made it entirely flesh [or beastly] and earthly, so that my soul (by reason of the impurity of sin) does not even know itself, and sighs before Your countenance entirely as a strange child, which is not worthy to desire Your grace. I lie in the filth of sin, and [in the] vanity of my corrupted flesh up to the lips of my soul, and I have only a small spark (of the living breath) in me, which desires Your grace. I have become so entirely dead to myself (in vanity) that I do not even dare to lift my eyes to You (in this vanity). O God! in Christ Jesus, You who became human for the sake of the poor sinner, that You might help him: I complain it to You (I still have a spark of trust in You in my soul), I have not regarded the inheritance (that You have won for us poor humans through Your bitter