The second book of wonders

When this was revealed, my nerves shook, my head was like rivers of water, and I really could say with Paul, "Whether in the body or out of the body, I could not tell." 2 Corinthians 12:2 I may say likewise, whether in my senses or out of my senses, I could not tell; for my spirits were so confused that I could scarcely speak to the friends when they came.

They all seemed to feel for me, and all were astonished when they heard the communication read. In response to my trembling and dreading the thought of a marriage union at this stage of life, considering my age and the happy single life I now lived, I was agitated with sorrow, which I thought was greater than I could bear. But I was answered:

"If I refused to give my hand in marriage to the man the Lord had designed it for, when the Lord’s appointed time had come, then my writings would be of no use to mankind; all would be but lost labor if I refused a marriage union with a man."

This was pointed out to me from my writings, the sense and meaning of which no one understood before they were explained to me; and then all my friends saw clearly that an earthly union must take place to fulfill them.

Strange Effects of Faith, page 108.

But never did any judges in your land
Have such a weighty trial in hand.
Since I was judged at Pilate’s bar,
The Holy Ghost must be judged here;
But I do tell them it is not you;
It is the writings they must view;
I am the Spirit that did compose,
That first induced you to write;